Hii, it’s me, your Suraj. Once upon a time, I was yours; now, I don’t know what to say. This
year, I lost the two most important people in my life. First, my father—from that day, my life
changed completely. I miss him a lot. Second, it’s you. I lost you because of my behavior and my
doubts,
even though I trusted you more than anyone.
I have made many mistakes and bad decisions in my life that I still regret. I love you. I wish I
could change things to how I want them to be, but we both know that won’t happen. I know deep
down you still love me, and I wish that were true. I know taking the decision to leave me was
hard for you; I saw the tears in your eyes when we last met and said our final goodbye on
September 4th—I remember the date. Then, I did something I wasn’t supposed to do: I asked
Karthik how you were. You know what happened.
Then, after 10 days, you messaged me and remembered me. I was so happy when I saw your message.
It was the first happy day I had in a long time. We started talking daily like friends, but I
could never imagine you just as a friend. You were always my Pandhi.
I’m so happy to see you smiling daily and to see the progress you've made in your life. I’m proud
of you for taking care of yourself. We both had very bad days—pata nahi kisiki nazar lagi. I
wish I could wake up one day to find everything sorted out and us back to normal, happy together
like we used to be. I miss every single second we spent together, and those video calls—those
days were so beautiful.
I don’t want to lose you. I hope 2026 will be better, and I wish to see us together again. I miss
"us", and I will wait for you.
Please, let's give us a chance once again. Give me a chance to prove I'm ready to make changes.
Just one last chance.
I love you the most, Pandhi. I miss you.